It has been 9 months and the pain is gradually easing off. Although the occasional off day still occurs once in awhile. As is the case with all wounds, the scars remain.
For the first 4 months, it really felt so terrible. I wanted to cry everyday when I woke up. Thank you to all those who cared and listened to me cry, it might not seem like much to you but that was what kept me going.
Subsequently, between the 5th to 7th months, the rage, anger, despair and loneliness settled deeply in my bones. It felt too much to bear and I really hated the pain so much.
Lately, it feels so much better. I feel more calm and level headed. The tears don’t threaten to overflow at random moments anymore. Pretty soon, it will get to the stage where I don’t feel anything anymore.
Although the scar will remain, it will no longer bring me anymore pain.